That moment your life completely changes, kind of expected, kind of unexpected, is such a scary place to be. That place is exactly where I find myself right now, and strangely enough it is such a relief.
As my family and closest friends know, I have been beyond unhappy with my job for the past year and a half. I have worked for absolute tyrants who I fully believe could be the anti-Christ (kidding of course, but really though). They have put me through hell on earth and I truly believe they gained pleasure from the misery they subjected not only me, but my co-workers as well, to.
I know what you're thinking. Stupid, why did you stay so long? This organization was extremely near and dear to my heart. I volunteered for over eight years before I accepted a position to work for the organization. I felt the organization was a tie to my aunt who passed away five years ago. Because of these things, when my employment with this organization came to an end yesterday I was almost devastated. I was heartbroken, angry, confused. Then I took a step back and I thought about everything I had been through. I talked to friends that helped talk some sense in to me and here is our conclusion: God took this job away from me because I was too stubborn to walk away on my own. You see, there were several times that I sat for hours pulling up jobs on my computer and I would leave the tabs up for days thinking it was time to start looking for a new start. I would come back to my computer day after day after day and every time I did I would slowly close out the tabs until they were all gone. I convinced myself time and time again that all of the misery I was going through would be worth it in the long haul. The harassment from my bosses, I could overlook because the cause was a noble cause. I loved my job, just hated working for the people I was working for. I loved my co-workers, but hated that we were all miserable under this tyrant rule.
I 100% believe that everything happens for a reason and God only puts us in some places for a season. I feel like my season in that place was over long ago but I kept fighting it. That season of my life prepared me for whatever is coming next and I am so excited to see what that is. I'm believing for bigger and better. I'm praying for my ex-bosses, that they never experience half of the chaos, stress and extreme anxiety that they put their employees through. I'm praying for my ex-coworker and friends that are still dealing with the crazy and I'm praying for anyone, anywhere, that is going through the same kind of situation. Life is too short to be miserable, and for the first time in a long time I can honestly say I am happy!
