Officially a Momma!

So...its been a hot minute since this hot mess momma has visited the blog world! To say a lot has changed would be an understatement!
If you've been around my blog at all you know I've been a foster momma since March of 2014. Well, as of February and March of 2016 I am officially an adoptive Momma!
My babies that came to me as a newborn and a nine year old are now my three and almost thirteen year olds and I cannot imagine loving them anymore had I given birth to them myself.
So, without further ado, let me introduce you to my two official lovies!!!

My first baby is actually my youngest, three year old Simon Ezekiel! He was the best baby! Slept through the night from day one, loved to cuddle and outside of a week long stay in Children's Hospital he was so perfectly healthy I was in shock (given the situation he came from). Simie, as the daycare kiddos renamed Bub, is now a rambunctious toddler who likes to climb furniture, ride the dog like he's a horse, make monstrous disasters and show his favorite people just how much he loves them by giving "good sugars"...a lot. He is my little rotten boy that could not be more perfect!

My second "baby" came to me a month before her 10th birthday as an overly medicated, exhausted, nervous, beautiful little blonde haired, blue eyed girl. Once we tackled the medication issue she quickly became a sassy, loving, inspirational little girl. Now, almost three years later Lillian Elizabeth, aka LillyBeth, is the absolute best big sister, officially a Homecoming Queen for the peewee football team, an amazing little softball player, and has a huge circle of friends that are an absolute blast. She really has grown in to such an amazing (almost) teenager and I am so blessed to have this sweet girl as mine!

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I'm counting down the days.

36 days.

In 36 days I will take my little man back to court for hopefully the next to last time.

In 36 days our adoption date should be set, and hopefully taken care of within a month. By July 4th Bubby should officially be mine and I could not be more excited!

I tear up just thinking about how special this last year has been and how grateful I am for the parents that birthed my sweet baby, but I'll save that post for later, maybe when it is all official.

Today I'm stressing about the logistics of it all.
I have to plan long term with this little person. I have to worry about the paperwork, new birth certificate, new social security card, etc. I have to think about him starting pre-school and kindergarten and then graduating high school and eventually college.
I like to think about the person he will become. He already has such an amazing little personality, I can only imagine how it will grow and change with him.

Today I'm stressing about names. What will I name my sweet boy?! For over a year we have simply called him Bubby for the most part. I knew if given the opportunity to adopt I would and I would not want to keep his birth name in its entirety, if at all. I feel like what you name a baby is a huge decision, but how do I find the perfect combination of unique and traditional? Should I be freaking out over the fact that the original name I picked has now sky rocketed on the "Baby Names of 2015" on nameberry.com!? Because I'm totally freaking out over this!

More than all of these things I'm stressing over at the moment (and there are plenty of other things on the list that are more than any one blog post can handle), I am so beyond excited to be this much closer to officially being a Momma and not just a FoMomma! This is not at all what I expected for my life at this point, it's so much better. I am so blessed!